#Coupledrama #Compareus

I’m going to comment on something that the Magician hates. But he’s currently lying asleep next to me and can’t take my phone out of my paws… Ha ha ha!

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#Year of change #LoveLife #2019

Singing in 2019 in last year, I saw all the smiling faces surround me. I kissed goodbye to an epic 2018, with my husband holding me softly, telling me all he wants is to spend everyday of his life with me. Leaving me, as always, feeling a continued awestruck gratitude that brought him into my life.

Normally every year I reflect back on the positives and the negatives. Make resolutions I never keep on losing weight, or ‘changing’ anything I’ve decided I don’t arbitrarily like about myself. But this year I’m left feeling nothing but gratitude. And a distinct lack of need for a resolution, of any kind.

At the end of 2017 I tried to accept I wasn’t ready for a relationship yet, and continued to try and ‘look for change’. I was still hunting down the ‘new’ Amy that was magically different, better, shinier. The year had other plans for me though.

2018 took me on a tour through Thailand and Nepal, where the Magician and I came back together. During the several months that followed a cycle of me trying to prep for the 2,200 mile Appalachian trail and injury, I finally realised that the Magician wasn’t going to hurt me (I didn’t need to keep trying to run away from him). My third (and final) attempt at hiking the trail lasting only a few days and miles out from Harpers ferry. Giving me time to finally realise and truly accept what it really meant to ‘listen to’ my body. Whilst the Magician traveled to India for satsang that changed his life, to the point I followed suit a few short weeks later. The winter brought me home to our French wedding filled with more love and tears than I thought existed in the world. And if that wasn’t enough, we finally made it home, to Dublin, to settle down for a life filled with love, nature and simplicity.

At the end of all this, I can’t help but be stuffed to the brim with gratitude. Two years ago I started a new journey, which has lead me to a new family that has welcomed me home like a long lost friend. Continued to leave me filled with a flabbergasted inspiration for my wheelchair bound mother. Warmed to the bottom of my heart with my family’s continued love. Mischievous giggles from shared laughter and adventures with friends old, and new. But, above all, there’s a twinkle in my eyes, put there as if by magic, from a blue eyed Frenchman.

During the last few months I’ve questioned whether or not to continue my blog. I’d originally started this as a method to help me work through the sudden changes in my life, then as a method to improve my writing. A conversation with a beautiful Belgian Lion finally brought me back here. Reminding me of the simple pleasure I have of writing, and her’s, from seeing another’s adventures through their eyes.

I’ll leave you all here, wishing you a wonderful 2019. One where you don’t have a resolution to be a ‘new’ person, seek reasons to not just accept that beauty that is you, just as you are. Where you can enjoy the cup of tea, just for the pleasure of the moment. One where your health continues to be your wealth. A year that sparkles and ignites love in you. And lastly….. one that helps you to connect to someone beautiful.

Credits: A massive thank you to the phenomenal Alex, who caught our smiles, and the epic Simon, who captured our cold November salutations.

New Years Resolution- #Poem #Poetry

Contemplative faces

Gaze into the distance

Time of reflection

Repetitive promises of improvement

Half heartedly followed

Dreams of cloudless days

Wishes blown to the wind

Hoping to be caught by fairies

Messages of love and connections

Requests for forgiveness fall forthright

On deaf ears

A day like all others

Just a marker in your sand

Delivered with booze and fireworks

And yet the day starts

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Fruitless Villainy #Poem #Arguements #LoversTears

Life permeates all your words

Spilling from your mouth

As easily as a lovers verse

Turning me to the villian

When I have done no wrong

Banishing me to blood and rath

All to play your childish games

When you are no more than you are

The mind happily blown away

To tears and silence

Time #Poem #Timer #Measurethis

I measure you in a unit

Thinking I can define you

Limit you, control your passage

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Being with Reality Part 2 – #Slippeddisc #Cancelledplans

I was quickly discharged from the hospital, grateful that I didn’t need emergency surgery. Given stronger painkillers, I was left in a continual drug haze on the living room floor, unable to move beyond a few paces. The jokes of my constant request for cups of tea, which only went cold at my hands as I feel quickly asleep again. Constant tally’s of what drug I could have next, could I have a strong one again? Or Continue reading Being with Reality Part 2 – #Slippeddisc #Cancelledplans

Awakening #Poem #Enlightenment #Awaken

Emotions have become a drama

Ego driving things a thunder

Mind analysing when not wanted

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Mon Soleil- #Poem #Love

Ice-cream eyes staring into mine

Subtle touches, hiding the hunger

Warm sighs, as soft as a summer breeze

Hearts burning in a furnace of blazing sun

Memories give rise to tingles that play out across my bare skin

A subconcious smile given at mention of your sun shine name

Time stops when our eyes lock

And I forget to breath

Only existing here… A day of pure sun

Ghost of Fear- #Poem #Broken heart

It’s a subtle change

You seem just a touch happier today

The day I’m to leave you

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Koh Samui Part 2- #ParadiseIsland #Thailand #Asia

This was to be an exceptionally strange week, as I spoke to my ex- husband for the first time in months. This was to let him know that I was writing a book, some of it was based on our relationship break down. I’d just wanted to check that he was ok with me writing this. It turns out he didn’t mind at all. In fact he wanted to read a copy of it when it was finished. The conversation then took a bizarre turn, he talked about how it was hard to adjust to living in a more frugal life style compared to when we’d been together. On top of that, he recommended I read a book based on how to keep your marriage together. All in all, this made me extremely uncomfortable. Continue reading Koh Samui Part 2- #ParadiseIsland #Thailand #Asia

Koh Samui Part 1- #ParadiseIsland #Thailand #Asia

I travelled out to Koh Samui from Chiang Mai (catching a flight, then a ferry). This was actually a lot simpler than I’d thought it would be and I was at my hotel by 3pm The hotel was slightly expensive, but I had a room to myself for the quiet I’d been craving. The entire point of landing into Koh Samui was to keep writing, on and on until I’d released pent up emotions and could understand some of the turbulence over the last few months. Questions flooded my mind over and over again. And my pen flew at speed through my note pad. Continue reading Koh Samui Part 1- #ParadiseIsland #Thailand #Asia

Chiang Mai- #Yogaheaven #Thailand #Asia

After leaving Nepal in our wake, we headed to the Northern Thai city, Chiang Mai. This city is a very well-known spiritual place, filled with retreats, elephant sanctuaries, and other fun things for the conscious tourist. After landing in the city, we got picked up from the centre to start our retreat. I was excited about this, as a German Yoga instructor recommended Suan Sati. We would be spending 2 weeks in their Truck-a-low. This was basically a truck that had been converted into a romantic room for two. Continue reading Chiang Mai- #Yogaheaven #Thailand #Asia

Free from my Mind- #Poem #Enlightenment

Take me away

Free me from the judgement

Guilt laced responsibility

Narcissistic ruminating

Run from the noise

Consequences of my behaviour

Blind me to my fault

Away me from the rightous

Free me from my mind

 

Escapism- #Poem #Poetry

Take me away

Free me from judgement

Guilt laced responsibility

Narcissistic ruminating

Run from the noise

Consequences of my behaviour

Blind me to my fault

Free me from the night

Bangkok- #Thailand #BangkokMadness

As soon as I arrived in Bangkok, I crashed out from jet lagged (after 36 hours of travelling). My next focus was purely on getting my visa for the USA, so that I could do the Appalachian trail across the USA. After I’d submitted my online application I finally thought, maybe I should actually see a little bit of Bangkok?

With jetlag still looming I Continue reading Bangkok- #Thailand #BangkokMadness