#TravelOn

Life has been deliciously busy recently as we’ve been starting the hunt for our home in North Dublin, whilst having quick trips to Gran Canaria, France and back to the Peak District to visit all the beautiful people in our life.

We’re sitting out in undecided weather, one minute its sunny, the next cloudy. Thoughts keep coming to mind of how we project ourselves and our thoughts onto the world around. It’s a little game we all play. Continue reading #TravelOn

#GameofThrones #Belfast #Workstory

I have little catch phrases that the Magician likes to point out…. Gentle hints (or sometimes a deserved verbal brick in the face) that I always say this.

  • Its just really hectic at the moment due to blah blah
  • This person messed up so I have to stay late
  • I’m just really stressed right now

As I lay in bed Continue reading #GameofThrones #Belfast #Workstory

#Coupledrama #Compareus

I’m going to comment on something that the Magician hates. But he’s currently lying asleep next to me and can’t take my phone out of my paws… Ha ha ha!

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#Year of change #LoveLife #2019

Singing in 2019 in last year, I saw all the smiling faces surround me. I kissed goodbye to an epic 2018, with my husband holding me softly, telling me all he wants is to spend everyday of his life with me. Leaving me, as always, feeling a continued awestruck gratitude that brought him into my life.

Normally every year I reflect back on the positives and the negatives. Make resolutions I never keep on losing weight, or ‘changing’ anything I’ve decided I don’t arbitrarily like about myself. But this year I’m left feeling nothing but gratitude. And a distinct lack of need for a resolution, of any kind.

At the end of 2017 I tried to accept I wasn’t ready for a relationship yet, and continued to try and ‘look for change’. I was still hunting down the ‘new’ Amy that was magically different, better, shinier. The year had other plans for me though.

2018 took me on a tour through Thailand and Nepal, where the Magician and I came back together. During the several months that followed a cycle of me trying to prep for the 2,200 mile Appalachian trail and injury, I finally realised that the Magician wasn’t going to hurt me (I didn’t need to keep trying to run away from him). My third (and final) attempt at hiking the trail lasting only a few days and miles out from Harpers ferry. Giving me time to finally realise and truly accept what it really meant to ‘listen to’ my body. Whilst the Magician traveled to India for satsang that changed his life, to the point I followed suit a few short weeks later. The winter brought me home to our French wedding filled with more love and tears than I thought existed in the world. And if that wasn’t enough, we finally made it home, to Dublin, to settle down for a life filled with love, nature and simplicity.

At the end of all this, I can’t help but be stuffed to the brim with gratitude. Two years ago I started a new journey, which has lead me to a new family that has welcomed me home like a long lost friend. Continued to leave me filled with a flabbergasted inspiration for my wheelchair bound mother. Warmed to the bottom of my heart with my family’s continued love. Mischievous giggles from shared laughter and adventures with friends old, and new. But, above all, there’s a twinkle in my eyes, put there as if by magic, from a blue eyed Frenchman.

During the last few months I’ve questioned whether or not to continue my blog. I’d originally started this as a method to help me work through the sudden changes in my life, then as a method to improve my writing. A conversation with a beautiful Belgian Lion finally brought me back here. Reminding me of the simple pleasure I have of writing, and her’s, from seeing another’s adventures through their eyes.

I’ll leave you all here, wishing you a wonderful 2019. One where you don’t have a resolution to be a ‘new’ person, seek reasons to not just accept that beauty that is you, just as you are. Where you can enjoy the cup of tea, just for the pleasure of the moment. One where your health continues to be your wealth. A year that sparkles and ignites love in you. And lastly….. one that helps you to connect to someone beautiful.

Credits: A massive thank you to the phenomenal Alex, who caught our smiles, and the epic Simon, who captured our cold November salutations.

New Years Resolution- #Poem #Poetry

Contemplative faces

Gaze into the distance

Time of reflection

Repetitive promises of improvement

Half heartedly followed

Dreams of cloudless days

Wishes blown to the wind

Hoping to be caught by fairies

Messages of love and connections

Requests for forgiveness fall forthright

On deaf ears

A day like all others

Just a marker in your sand

Delivered with booze and fireworks

And yet the day starts

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I Am #Poem #Brokenlies #MovingOn

Choices plague me in the light

Frequently lies of my needs

Self- worth based on affection given

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Being with Reality Part 2 – #Slippeddisc #Cancelledplans

I was quickly discharged from the hospital, grateful that I didn’t need emergency surgery. Given stronger painkillers, I was left in a continual drug haze on the living room floor, unable to move beyond a few paces. The jokes of my constant request for cups of tea, which only went cold at my hands as I feel quickly asleep again. Constant tally’s of what drug I could have next, could I have a strong one again? Or Continue reading Being with Reality Part 2 – #Slippeddisc #Cancelledplans

Being with Reality Part 1- #Slippeddisc #NHS #UK

The Magician and I travelled back together to Bangkok from Koh Tao. Unfortunately life was about to get complicated for me and I would have to face reality versus the idea of a dream. I’d taken a simple fall on Koh Tao, which at the time had caused my muscles to stiffen up. Continue reading Being with Reality Part 1- #Slippeddisc #NHS #UK

Koh Tao- #Diving #Thailand #Asia

After Koh Pha Ngan Full Moon party we were definitely needing something a bit calmer. Jumping on the ferry together, we left in the morning again for Koh Tao. This is a very small Thai island, know mainly for its diving. Now this is where the Magician and I are a little interesting… I have asthma and he once broke one of the tiny bones in his inner ear. When we were stood outside ‘French Kiss’ diving company, we were distinctly told we couldn’t have the worst medical conditions as a couple for diving if we tried.

So needless to say the diving here is AMAZING! But that’s going to be obvious, Thai Island… coral reefs (blah blah). So I won’t go on about this, I’m just going to give a few tips on picking a diving school. So, I trawled tripadvisor (and a couple of blogs) on who we should pick. We’d already booked our accommodation, before I found out on Koh Tao that a lot of the diving school here will commonly include accommodation in the cost of an Open water. But after that boo boo, I looked for a medium sized school which would be able to cater for our languages. French Kiss came out as one of the top places (and was conveniently near to our hotel). So something you’ll come to notice in Thailand is most travellers here are German or French (not so many Brits). However, going to French Kiss where most of the Divers were French (but they have English speaking instructor), boom! The Magician and I had our Open Water with our own instructor (who also had a Dive Master training with us). So it meant the first time the Magician was in the water, he got one to one time to help him get really comfortable with diving. Whilst I happily floated behind him, with the Dive Master making sure I didn’t try to find a shark to pet (I’m a bit weird, best not to ask).

The other benefit was the first sessions of the Open Water took us to Super Shallow places to dive. In my first dive I didn’t have this. And to be honest, I think it would have been better to be in a very shallow place, as it helps to get very comfortable with the weird feeling of breathing underwater. The week passed quickly (and tiringly) with early morning study lessons, followed by 2 dives in the afternoon. But before we knew it, we were both qualified. Even managing to sneak in a night dive, before we had to head back.

If you’re not going to dive in Koh Tao, there is still a lot to do on the island. And its really easy to hire a moped and see the island. The beach we stayed at was stunning. But the bit that surprised me, was the smaller restaurants next to our hotel were amazing. Including a great vegan café, and a bohemian multi- story tree house (that seemed to be more appropriate to Jamaica and Bob Marley that here).  When you go into the main part of the town, it felt a lot more commercially touristy (which isn’t really my thing!). What you’ll find is that the locals tell you to get a taxi everywhere. And some places are only 15 mins walk away. The hills up and down the road are fairly steep though. And unfortunately I slipped and feel embarrassing smack on my butt in front of a crowd of locals… D’oh!

So all in all, Koh Tao was wonderful. I love being with nature. And under- water nature is so different, especially at night. As the week drew to a close though, the Magician and I started to feel the pressure of my impending walk on the Appalachian Trail. Walking 2,200 miles for 6 months in the USA would mean a long separation, whilst he would continue his journey to understand enlightenment through Vipassana and he was planning on visiting a Zen Master in India. This background left us in a status of limbo’d and in need for reassurance, but at the same time complete respect for one another separate journey.

Photo’s kindly provided by Saber Photography!

 

Illuminate #Poem #Awaken #Buddha

Control this, Manipulate that

All built onto a stack of lies

Seek the path

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Loves Distance #Poem #Longdistancerelationship

I know you’re far from me

But never distant from my thoughts

Countries may separate us

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Awakening #Poem #Enlightenment #Awaken

Emotions have become a drama

Ego driving things a thunder

Mind analysing when not wanted

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Koh Samui Part 2- #ParadiseIsland #Thailand #Asia

This was to be an exceptionally strange week, as I spoke to my ex- husband for the first time in months. This was to let him know that I was writing a book, some of it was based on our relationship break down. I’d just wanted to check that he was ok with me writing this. It turns out he didn’t mind at all. In fact he wanted to read a copy of it when it was finished. The conversation then took a bizarre turn, he talked about how it was hard to adjust to living in a more frugal life style compared to when we’d been together. On top of that, he recommended I read a book based on how to keep your marriage together. All in all, this made me extremely uncomfortable. Continue reading Koh Samui Part 2- #ParadiseIsland #Thailand #Asia